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My Book Is Now In Paperback!! Mental Health Awareness Week

With it coming up to Mental Health Awareness Week, I am super pleased to say that my book In Bloom Not Broken is now available in paperback!

There is nothing like writing a book and finally getting a real copy in your hands! That is made even better with it coinciding with Mental Health Awareness Week!

This vlog is a little about my book, why I wrote it and what it’s all about!

You can get a copy (ebook or paper back) HERE UK Or HERE US

My journey through mental illness including self harm, depression, anorexia, bipolar disorder and the battle for treatment. I wanted it to be honest and really resonate with people and so I hope you will support and grab a copy! Please do remember to leave a little amazon review as It means the world to know that people have taken something from it and that it has helped in someway.

Katie Maylea – mental health book – In Bloom Not Broken

In Bloom Not Broken - Mental health book - Mental health awareness
Katie Maylea – Mental health book – In Bloom Not Broken – Mental health awareness

Never did I think I would have an actual book with my story open for everyone to read. Never in a million years. It’s possible guys! If I can do it so can you!

Much love and hope for this coming Mental Health Awareness Week

Katie

xxxx

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The Secret To Happiness!

What If I told you I could tell you the secret to happiness?

What If I told you I could give you something that could change your life in an instant?

One small thing and things would change forever, you’d be happy successful, rich…….

I present to you…………

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That’s right folks, I gained my glasses and found eternal happiness……Right?

Sorry….No.

I could tell you that these glasses are magic glasses, they are different to all the other glasses out there, they changed my face, my smile, my happiness, my life…..

They didn’t.

Obviously.

Photo one It’s midnight, I’m tired, i’ve taken my glasses off, I’ve had a shitty day / week / month, i’m stressed and getting ready to go to sleep. As is life sometimes.

Photo two its a reasonable time of the morning and i’m showered, dressed, make up on, fresh, going through a good period with no major stresses and I’ve put my glasses on.

The glasses made zero impact (apart from me being a little more blurry eyed without them)

My point to this blog is to talk a bit about the increasing amount of social media pages and accounts that are filled to the brim with perfect pictures, perfect people in perfect places, selling their perfect products or systems so that you can too, be perfect just like them……..To the cost of your soul.

It’s soul draining to see these perfect smiles on these people who have made a “six figure income in a month” and you can too!…… All you have to do is give them more money!

Or perfect bodies that have apparantly occured from drinking this one juice which you can have too if you sign up to their plan…..

I see so many accounts filled with perfect, pictures perfectly placed with colour co ordinating photos to catch the eye and make you wish that you were co ordinating just like them when in fact you’re sat at home in your pyjama bottoms wishing the washing up would do itself.

It’s. Not. Real.

There is so much pressure these days, this is especially tough for those of us that deal with mental health issues and don’t feel that we are enough a lot of the time, that wish we were different, that struggle with keeping up with life sometimes and it’s normal day to day pressures let alone these additional ones.

I often sit and wonder when I see these accounts what these people do when they have a bad day?

Because they do. Because they are human.

They can’t ruin their perfectly placed social media account and I always find myself wondering how these people cope when they have to deal with being not perfect, do they all have lots of people to turn to in the real world who know them as they are? I hope they do as It must be genuinely really tough and It seems such a huge pressure to put on oneself.

I understand people make a living and need to do just that, I understand that and admire those that have done this via social media and built something positive and have been able to drive an income from that. I have a real admiration for anyone that builds something from the ground themselves. However I have an issue with people selling “perfect” especially when it is to the vulnerable or those that are searching for happiness and more easily fooled. I believe that if someone has a genuine interest in helping others this is evident through other things that they do – actions speak louder than words. If someone has a genuine passion to do something to benefit others then even if they are to make a living from that very thing I believe there will be more to that than just generic messages, inboxes, photo’s and figures and how you too can have this money / body / happiness ……… (Fill blank as appropriate)

For example I am going to see a counsellor (Says the trainee counsellor ….. See – not all perfect!) due to some issues of late that I need to get on top of. Now thats her job and she needs to make a living. She has a passion for helping others as I hope all counsellors do. I asked her about concessions due to my current financial situation and she emailed me with an extremely reduced rate saying that her goal was that “counselling is accessible to everyone”

Now I’m not saying that a counsellor who doesn’t do this doesn’t care, of course not, it’s a job at the end of the day but my point is this shows true compassion and a want to make people’s lives better.

I recently pulled my book from my publisher and am self publishing it. This was for a variety of reasons but also as I wanted to have more control over the price as I felt it was too expensive and at the end of the day I wrote it to help others – not for the money. I wanted it to be accessible and affordable. I am not selling a story to make money from giving others hope, I wanted to share my story to show others it can get better regardless of what money I make from it.

These people that try and sell you happiness for your soul are selling perfection. Perfection is not achievable and i know from being a true diagnostic perfectionist that this is actually extremely damaging as you can never reach it.

I wanted to write this post to tell you that you are enough. Don’t get caught up in these pictures, social media accounts and perfect lives because the truth is most of them wont be what they seem. Nothing ever is. There is always more to a story. Especially a 2 dimensional one with varying squares of photos that are placed in a way to get as many followers and likes as possible.

We all do it, we all want out posts on social media to be looked at, shared and noticed. We wouldn’t be human if we didn’t but just don’t feel you have to live up to these “perfect” worlds. Don’t feel you’re failing because you don’t have a body like the girl who lost x amount because she drank a juice (When really that took a lot of time and work because they probably also work out and go to the gym and it wasn’t just down to the varying bottle they are holding in their hand)

Be Real.

Be You.

Be the best version of you, achieve that how you want to, go about it how you want and take as long as you need. Be kind to yourself. Show your strength by proving how you rise when you have fallen and do that for you. Not for anyone else. Do it to grow and build your own inner strength. Don’t feel you have to find that in others or by wearing “Magic Glasses”.

There is just one of you. Just one in this whole world and that is amazing. Perfect pictures that catch the eye don’t matter, Continuously feeling like you have to be living your “Best Life” doesn’t matter.

What matters is that you are living YOUR life. In YOUR way and being true to yourself.

That my beauties, is the true secret to happiness.

xxxx

 

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Lord Mayor Award!

I am still in shock that I received this letter telling me that I am getting a Lord Mayor Award!

This last month or so has been a rollercoaster of some amazing things and some terribly stressful things.

In about a month I have almost completed a course I never thought I would have the ability to do, I have changed my surname by deedpoll for personal and emotional reasons, walked away from my remaining parent who I desperately wanted a relationship with but realised this was never going to happen, struggled to buy food due to job loss, had to talk to the council about social housing and possiblity of homeless registers, then had some amazing person pay my level 3 counselling course fees anonomously which blew me away then this dropped through the door!!

Talk about roller coaster!!!

Some terrible stress mixed with the most amazing things has left my emotions feeling a little all over! However I am so immenseley grateful for the good lately and these incredible moments that have picked me back up. I don’t know who paid my course fees but I don’t have enough words to thank them.

I can’t believe that the Lord Mayor believes that I deserve this amazing recognition but I am blown away and so so thankful and I hope I am able to use this to move forward and do even more in relation to my mental health projects because that’s what I do it for, to reach people and show it is possible for things to get better and to not give in to those thoughts of suicide, that one more step is a step in the right direction, even if it feels wrong because you are still here to fight!

I wrote my BOOK and shared my story to reach as many hands of people who feel they have reached their end of hope as possible to show that if I can do it, so can anyone out there.

I do the projects that I do to create conversation around mental health and also to show people that small things that we can all easily do – they do make a difference to people. To quote the Dalai Lama:

“If you think you are too small to make a difference – try sleeping with a mosquito”

We are all capable of change, we are all capable of creating change.

I am incredibly humbled and grateful for this award (even if recieving praise I actually find quite difficult) The letter absolutely lifted me when I was starting to feel quite down and doubt myself and I am incredibly thankful for that and eveyone who supports me here and online daily. It really does mean the world to me.

This just shows though it is possible to go from being gripped by mental illness, multiple hospital admissions and wanting to die and planning just that to holding on by a thread and going on to do things (even though I still struggle and cannot say it’s perfect by any means) that I never thought I should, could or would and have found a true passion and positive in the hell that once was.

So keep going my friend, don’t give up on you. Not ever.

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Can You Help Me with My Dream?

Anyone that has seen my last blog post will know that life is currently not going in my favour to say the least.

I am determined to not let it all get the better of me, but I have to be honest and say that it is testing my metal, as they say at the moment!

As some of you may know I started my counselling training and am about to complete my level 2 which I have absolutely loved and it has not only taught and trained me in a field but also opened my mind personally and it has contributed to some very big changes within my personal life too.

Unfortunately with the shit hitting the fan in my personal circumstances I now cannot afford to move on to the level 3 as planned in June and am trying to hang on to hope and the possibility of losing the further training too.

As a last option I have created a Go Fund Me page to see whether I may be able to raise the funds to carry on my training.

Below is the Go Fund Me campaign details and link. I cannot tell you how much I would appreciate any contribution, no matter how small that would enable me to continue on my quest for counsellor qualification.

Massive thanks in advance beautiful people.

Contribute Here

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Contribute HERE

My name is Katie and I am extremely passionate about mental health.
I have battled mental issues for most of my life including depression, anxiety, OCD and bipolar disorder with multiple subsequent hospital admissions.
Due to this I never pursued education and missed out on a lot of general life feeling lost, incapable and unsure where I was going.

Over the most recent years and with finally getting the right help and treatment I have been able to move on with my life and make some positive changes.

I decided that I wanted to use my experiences for something good – take all that negative and instead of feeling bitter about it use it for something positive.

I started sending “Happy Post” to those struggling with their mental health free to just help people know that they are not alone and to make someone smile!
From there I built a website www.mentalhealthjourney.co.uk where I blog and vlog to raise awareness on mental illness by sharing my own story and talking about related issues.

From doing that I started to do my own projects out in the community to raise awareness and create conversation around mental health and some of these got picked up by the media and social sharing sites and so I have gone on to share my story through various media such as the Victoria Derbyshire Show, radio, RT News and various other places as well as being part of the Lloyds bank #GetTheInsideOutCampaign.

I also volunteer for SHOUT which is a text service for people that feel they are in mental health crisis and need someone to talk to.

I have also recently published a book about my own journey through mental illness to give others something raw and relatable with no heirs and graces to show no one needs to be ashamed of their feelings and also hopefully raise awareness of how treatment needs to change within the system.

Counselling is something I have wanted to train in for many many years but I needed to make sure I was in the right place emotionally to do it and also build up enough confidence to actually take the plunge!

I finally got the that place and I am a few weeks from finishing my level 2 course.

The next step is my level 3 which I am due to start in June and was hoping to move on with  my same classmates as it takes me a while to settle in to places and I finally felt like I was getting there. I have loved every second of my level 2 and was excited to carry on towards becoming qualified but unfortunately my partner got made redundant.

Without making this in to an Xfactor sob story which I do not want as it stands we may be on the verge of losing out home and having to go down the social housing route, living is a struggle to say the least and we are just about surviving on the money I get.
Because my partner was self employed for a while after being made redundant to try and help himself rather than taking from the benefit system, ironically he is not not elegible for any benefits at all and so we are just about surviving and  every way we are looking at the moment we are being hit my a brick wall.

While I am determined not to let this beat us and we will fight until the death – with so much going on I really don’t want to lose my course and my training as well as it has kept me going and given me a focus that I do not want to lose with the long term aspirations that go alongside it.

I have tried advanced learner loans, grants and the like but just met by more brick walls. The only other option to train is the local adult education centre but unfortunately I applied to them before where I am currently training. The interview was great. All was well and then I received a phone call saying that I wasn’t being offered a place due to my “vulnerabilities” (The only thing I had told them was that I had bipolar disorder!) So that is not a viable route for me.

I have exhausted all other options and so that Is why I am resorting to this page and seeing wether i may be able to raise enough to help me start the level 3 training in June.  I am really trying not to leave what would be another 12 months before I can re look at it with a new group of people when with the type of course it is would set me back in the progress I have made and I would love to be able to continue, in flow, after finishing my level 2 very soon.

I have set the financial goal as what would cover the course fees and left out the registration fees as I should just about be able to cover this myself.

My passion is to help others in relation to mental health and to use my own experiences for something positive and I can’t tell you how much it would mean If I was able to raise this money to continue my training and to eventually, hopefully be able to give back to others.

I am so grateful for any help to help me along my journey and give a huge thank you to anyone that can donate no matter how small.

Contribute HERE

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Why Having A Meltdown Is Necessary

We all, I think try and hold back emotions, our true feelings and selves sometimes but more often than not this will find a way of exploding.

Recently with the stress of having to cancel my event through what I felt what lack of support, understanding, ticket sales, my partner losing his job, health issues, and general life stress it all exploded in to a cluster fuck of shit. One big explosion of emotion that took my feet from underneath me.

I am still not 100% and the level of pure anxiety from the aftermath of everything recently is still lingering and while I may simmer for a while, it it is taking the smallest things to bring that back to the boil.

Everything is uncertain at the moment from where I am going to where I am going to live, the fact rent can’t be paid, I may not be able to continue on to level 3 of counselling course that I have worked so hard to complete level 2 due to funds, what is going to happen to us a family……It’s fairly overwhelming right now but one thing I have learned recently is to choose who I work with closely in relation to mental health projects and also that melting in to a million pieces is okay, it’s necessary sometimes. We are human, we all have limits – you have limits. Don’t ever think that breaking and crying and despairing is weak or isn’t okay somehow, because it IS okay, because you, me, all of us, we are in the words of Rag ‘n’ Bone Man “Only Human After all”

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Contract Signed To Publish My Childrens Book!

“I’d love to write a book”

I had always wanted to write a book. Specifically one about my own journey through mental illness and a childrens picture book. I didn’t know where to start. Little old me couldn’t do that, right?!

Wrong.

I am so excited to say that I have just signed a contract to publish my childrens picture book “Felix The Fox And His Awesome Odd Socks” through Beercott Books

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The story aims to promote self acceptance, diversity and positive mental health amongst young children – Something that I feel very passionately about.

This comes a week or so after my book In Bloom Not broken went live for purchase via Amazon (the paper back will be added shortly if you prefer a real book to hold!)

Since doing this, a lot of people have said to me “I’d love to write a book” or “I wouldn’t know where to start”……Let me tell you now – I didn’t either!

I have made this short video to touch on this and to say you can do whatever you want to do! Just go for it!

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New Vlog – It’s Been A While!

Writing a book is an amazing, scary thing!

In Bloom Not Broken – My Journey through mental illness is now available on Amazon!

I wanted to do a video updating what has been going on for me lately and to talk a bit about writing a book and how it’s difficult to please everone. It’s an impossible task and when writing yoir story it is just that – your story, your perspective and the only way to go about that is to own it and roll with it!