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Felix The Fox and his Awesome Odd Socks

Felix The Fox and his Awesome Odd Socks is my new childrens book that I have written to promote acceptance, difference and positive mental health in little ones ♡

I wanted to share with you the thoughts around writing this book and share some little parts of it with you ♡

Please do support it and grab a copy to share with your children or if you are a teacher, it’s a great conversation starter for a classroom ♡

Available from Amazon, Beercott Books and available to order from all good bookshops ♡

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It’s Been So Long! They Say Time Heals…..

Wow, it’s been way to long! I haven’t done any proper vlogs or blogs for sometime now. To be honest I kind of lost touch with everything for a while and am just starting to try and find some sort of path again.

In Summer last year We found out that my very special person ( for anyone that has read my book In Bloom Not Broken you will know her as the lady that I referred to as my “Nan” – she wasnt actually my nan in the technical terms. She was really more Mom, that would be a more accurate description but just not by blood, had pancreatic cancer.

She bought me up, gave me all of my childhood memories and was always there for me no matter what. There was barely a week of my life I went without seeing her plus phone calls during the week. I have never known life without her. She was my rock, my friend, my mother figure, my right arm.

She never was able to have children and she always said I was the daughter she could never have and she was the Mom that I always wanted.

Not long prior to this I cut contact with my my own (biological) Mom for various reasons and following a conversation that needed to take place even though I don’t think she will ever understand why.

When I found the diagnosis out we decided to get married so that she could give me away and be there, it was very important to me – I would have struggled to have got married happily once she had gone so we planned a very small wedding for ….Wait for it….Friday 13th September (the same day as the harvest moon! – totally unplanned lol)

She held on for that day and fought to get to it – we went to the malvern hills and on the morning say outside with a cuppa with a beautiful view and amazing weather given the time of year and then she walked me down the aisle.

I am so so grateful for these moment and memories of that day.

Following the wedding she declined rapidly and I was a whirlwind of work, looking after my daughter, college work as I was approaching the end of my level 3 counselling course, assignments and going to look after her and be there for her each morning and each evening.

5 weeks after the wedding she passed away. Those 5 weeks and seeing what I saw and hearing what I heard from the lady that was always my rock has not quite left my head. I’m not sure it ever will. It broke my heart.

The image of someone you love so much who you have never been without being there in body but no longer there and being wheeled away by an undertaker is something I think stays ingrained in your memory.

The day after she passed I went to college – I have no idea why – I think I went in to autopilot. I passed my level 3 somehow and completed all the work but it was very difficult and it’s pretty much been difficult since.

It’s funny when someone passes away – you get lots of “sorry for your loss” and “if you need anything”s but it almost seems that after a week or so people forget that you have lost the most important human in your world and that it must be ok now because you’re cracking on….What other choice is there? It doesn’t mean it’s gone away. In fact after the initial period it got a whole lot worse but I felt lonely. I was working on a childrens book (to be shared in next blog post!) But I lost pizzazz because Betty had kept asking when it would be done and now she wouldn’t see it, I lost oomph for my business because she used to come every week and ask what I was making now and now I had no one to show….The list went on….It still goes on. I am still struggling with this but I know how much she hated to see me sad so I’m doing my best to pick things back up and do my best which is all I can do.

I just want to say though if you know someone struggling with grief please reach out to them, dont always wait for them to come to you. It’s an incredibly overwhelming time and someones thought and time is appreciated. If someone has lost someone incredibly close they are already going to feel so alone – please make the effort and pop over, have a cup of tea, ask them to the pub, offer a day out – anything, it is really so important. Losing a parent or equivalent is horrendous. Really it is and if you are lucky enough to not have experienced that yet please just take a moment to imagine and then how much you would appreciate some time. Even 10 minutes. Reach out. Hold a hand out for someone that needs it.

I’m not back to normal – I don’t think I ever will be – too big a piece of my life is missing now and I’ve felt quite pressured to get back to normal (whatever that is) but we all deal with grief differently and I’m doing it the best way I can. Only my husband mnkws really just how much I’ve struggled and just how hard this has hit me and how I’ve coped (or not coped) but slowly slowly I will put my pieces back together.

So apologies that I have been away for so long but my path got a bit lost. I’m starting to get back on it though so hopefully things will get better little by little and I can figure out where I go next.

I’m here and a lot of that is down to my Betty who stuck by me through thick and thin ♡

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Life, Learning, Counselling Mental Health Displays & Mental Health Handmade!

So this last few weeks have been busy, tough, fantastic and a little messy all rolled in to a ball! Off the back of that tonights post is a bit of a chaotic mix much like the feel of my last few weeks!

First of all I passed my level 2 counselling course (YAY!) and have started my level 3! I hope to go on to the level 4 following this to become qualified and this is a HUGE step for me. I also want to show others that it doesn’t matter if you are late to the game and that fulfilling goals and dreams can be done when YOU are ready, at the right time and at your own pace! There is too much pressure on achieving NOW and with young people supposidly needing to know what they want to do immediately!

My mental health awareness displays at Birmingham New Street Station have had such a lovely response across social media and I am really planning on contacting other train stations to try and roll this out!

I have been having a bit of a pants time personally with having a lot to do lately, not being too well while waiting for an operation and also looking after a family member at the same time add to that kids, college, homework, my partner struggling to find work, money being tight, feeling like I have cabin fever with days out seeming like something of the distant past…..You know what it’s like – sometimes it just feels like being bogged down in crap and running from one thing to the next with no real break and I have been struggling with all of that recently. I have sat wondering why I do what I do, why I am what I am, where I am going, feeling like what’s the point really?!

I have also gone back to counselling myself for some personal sessions after some rather crappy family stuff which left me feeling really lost and quite frankly – really shit! There is no shame in needing to talk, needing to ask for help – even if you are training to be a counsellor yourself. Fun fact – counsellors have to have supervision ie someone to go to not only to ensure they are working ethically but also to go to for support and to get advice….

I know now however, that me now vs me then (Even back just a few years) is a big step forward. I feel these things but I trust in where I am going, or at least to attempt to follow the path which if nothing else is a bloody start vs me five years ago!

Sometimes thats all we can do. Keep the faith, hold to the hope and follow out current path and see where it leads!

As usual my two big distractions have been reading and craft! I LOVE books! They allow for real self care time for me and if you are not a “reader” I whole heartedly reccommend trying out some books, finding a genre you love (for me it’s psychological thrillers!) and giving it a go. It really allows me to switch off and be transported somewhere else.

I treated myself to a little second hand book case (£10!) Added some lights ans flowers and voila! A little prettiness to hold all my “to be read next books”

I have also been making new items for my ETSY SHOP – I make a lot of mental health related gifts as I find them fulfilling to make knowing they go to people who need a little pick me – Do feel free to have a nosey!

Sometimes life feels messy, sometimes it is chaotic, tiring, it feels upside down and back to front but keep going, ride the rollercoaster, do the things that work for you because while there are downs there are ups and somewhere along the line we will have an awesome ride and if nothing else an adventure along the way. Life lived is better than no life lived at all ♡

You’ve got this ♡

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Gifts For Those Struggling With Their Mental Health – Mental Health Awareness Week ♡

As it is Mental Health Awareness Week I wanted to share a very small selection of my mental health related gifts in my Etsy shop.

As some of you may or may not know I have an etsy shop!

Creativity is a huge part of my being and always has been. I love to make!

I doubly love to make and merge that in to mental health a positivity related gifts so below is a small selection of examples of what I make and sell!

You can see my Etsy shop here

Feel free to have a nosey and treat yorself or somone else this Mental Health Awaress Week to let them know they matter and are thought of ♡♡♡♡

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Mental Health Awareness Week Hope

Mental Health Awareness Week 2019 13th – 19th May.

I decided to repeat the project that I did for World Mental Health Day last year and reattach “Hearts Of Hope” to my local park entrace.

I hand wrote around 200 hearts and tags with messages of hope and inspiration, adding the number for the Samaritans and SHOUT – the fantastic new crisis text line that I volunteer for.

This had such a fantastic response last year with conversations happening around mental health in a place and situation that it wouldn’t normally occur. People talked to each other in the street and I recieved such lovely messages that I decided to do it again for Mental Health Awareness Week.

The hearts are all removeable so if someone is struggling with their mental health or know someone that is they can take a heart of hope away ♡

Sometimes the smallest of things can make a big difference and I hope these hearts can help just one person who maybe hasn’t spoken out yet and finds the courage to or that it once again sparks converstation around mental illness.

It is so imporant to me to raise awareness and provide hope to others having struggled for most of my life with my mental health and I really encourage anyone to do something similar in their area as it really can help someone!

As well as my hearts of hope project , just in time for Mental Health Awareness week the paperback format of my book In Bloom Not Broken is now available on Amazon ♡♡♡♡

Katie Maylea - Mental health - In Bloom Not Broken
In Bloom Not Broken – mental health book – Katie Maylea

This is my journey through mental illness offering insight and hope.

It is also available in ebook format and as part of Kindle Unlimited if you are signed up to that 🙂

If you are in the UK you can get it HERE

If you are in the US or use Amazon . com you can get it HERE

I would be so grateful if you consider buying a copy and can support me sharing my story (It’s quite a scary thing to do!)

If you do decided to read it please do leave a review on Amazon, they mean the world to me ♡♡

Whatever you do this Mental Health Awareness Week make sure you take care of you and don’t be alone with difficult feelings – If you are struggling please do reach out. Samaritans, SHOUT – whatever organisation it is, there are people waiting to listen and help so please do use them if you need someone.

You are not alone.

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Fancy My Book For FREE?!

Fancy reading my book In Bloom Not Broken for FREE?

FREE EBOOK AVAILABLE TODAY AND TOMORROW HERE

I’m so happy that it’s in the top 3 over 3 categories on Amazon today in free books (there’s a LOT of free books on Amazon so i’m 😁😀 )

Free mental health book In Bloom Not Broken
Free mental health ebook

I am so glad I get to do these free download periods now that I have re published it on my own as the point of it was to always help others and raise awareness..Not making money from it and I have more control over it being more accessible to more people now 🙂

One thing I ask is pretty please with a cherry on the top leave a review (hopefully a good one 😉 when yoy finish as it really helps others gain trust in the book and it helps it get seen on amazon. I lost ny original reviews when I republihed so this would mean a lot plus I love to hear the impact it has had and how it may have helped ♡♡♡

It’s free today and tomorrow so grab it it now HERE