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Can You Help Me with My Dream?

Anyone that has seen my last blog post will know that life is currently not going in my favour to say the least.

I am determined to not let it all get the better of me, but I have to be honest and say that it is testing my metal, as they say at the moment!

As some of you may know I started my counselling training and am about to complete my level 2 which I have absolutely loved and it has not only taught and trained me in a field but also opened my mind personally and it has contributed to some very big changes within my personal life too.

Unfortunately with the shit hitting the fan in my personal circumstances I now cannot afford to move on to the level 3 as planned in June and am trying to hang on to hope and the possibility of losing the further training too.

As a last option I have created a Go Fund Me page to see whether I may be able to raise the funds to carry on my training.

Below is the Go Fund Me campaign details and link. I cannot tell you how much I would appreciate any contribution, no matter how small that would enable me to continue on my quest for counsellor qualification.

Massive thanks in advance beautiful people.

Contribute Here

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Contribute HERE

My name is Katie and I am extremely passionate about mental health.
I have battled mental issues for most of my life including depression, anxiety, OCD and bipolar disorder with multiple subsequent hospital admissions.
Due to this I never pursued education and missed out on a lot of general life feeling lost, incapable and unsure where I was going.

Over the most recent years and with finally getting the right help and treatment I have been able to move on with my life and make some positive changes.

I decided that I wanted to use my experiences for something good – take all that negative and instead of feeling bitter about it use it for something positive.

I started sending “Happy Post” to those struggling with their mental health free to just help people know that they are not alone and to make someone smile!
From there I built a website www.mentalhealthjourney.co.uk where I blog and vlog to raise awareness on mental illness by sharing my own story and talking about related issues.

From doing that I started to do my own projects out in the community to raise awareness and create conversation around mental health and some of these got picked up by the media and social sharing sites and so I have gone on to share my story through various media such as the Victoria Derbyshire Show, radio, RT News and various other places as well as being part of the Lloyds bank #GetTheInsideOutCampaign.

I also volunteer for SHOUT which is a text service for people that feel they are in mental health crisis and need someone to talk to.

I have also recently published a book about my own journey through mental illness to give others something raw and relatable with no heirs and graces to show no one needs to be ashamed of their feelings and also hopefully raise awareness of how treatment needs to change within the system.

Counselling is something I have wanted to train in for many many years but I needed to make sure I was in the right place emotionally to do it and also build up enough confidence to actually take the plunge!

I finally got the that place and I am a few weeks from finishing my level 2 course.

The next step is my level 3 which I am due to start in June and was hoping to move on with  my same classmates as it takes me a while to settle in to places and I finally felt like I was getting there. I have loved every second of my level 2 and was excited to carry on towards becoming qualified but unfortunately my partner got made redundant.

Without making this in to an Xfactor sob story which I do not want as it stands we may be on the verge of losing out home and having to go down the social housing route, living is a struggle to say the least and we are just about surviving on the money I get.
Because my partner was self employed for a while after being made redundant to try and help himself rather than taking from the benefit system, ironically he is not not elegible for any benefits at all and so we are just about surviving and  every way we are looking at the moment we are being hit my a brick wall.

While I am determined not to let this beat us and we will fight until the death – with so much going on I really don’t want to lose my course and my training as well as it has kept me going and given me a focus that I do not want to lose with the long term aspirations that go alongside it.

I have tried advanced learner loans, grants and the like but just met by more brick walls. The only other option to train is the local adult education centre but unfortunately I applied to them before where I am currently training. The interview was great. All was well and then I received a phone call saying that I wasn’t being offered a place due to my “vulnerabilities” (The only thing I had told them was that I had bipolar disorder!) So that is not a viable route for me.

I have exhausted all other options and so that Is why I am resorting to this page and seeing wether i may be able to raise enough to help me start the level 3 training in June.  I am really trying not to leave what would be another 12 months before I can re look at it with a new group of people when with the type of course it is would set me back in the progress I have made and I would love to be able to continue, in flow, after finishing my level 2 very soon.

I have set the financial goal as what would cover the course fees and left out the registration fees as I should just about be able to cover this myself.

My passion is to help others in relation to mental health and to use my own experiences for something positive and I can’t tell you how much it would mean If I was able to raise this money to continue my training and to eventually, hopefully be able to give back to others.

I am so grateful for any help to help me along my journey and give a huge thank you to anyone that can donate no matter how small.

Contribute HERE

Posted in anxiety, mental health, mental health awareness, mental health campaigner

Why Having A Meltdown Is Necessary

We all, I think try and hold back emotions, our true feelings and selves sometimes but more often than not this will find a way of exploding.

Recently with the stress of having to cancel my event through what I felt what lack of support, understanding, ticket sales, my partner losing his job, health issues, and general life stress it all exploded in to a cluster fuck of shit. One big explosion of emotion that took my feet from underneath me.

I am still not 100% and the level of pure anxiety from the aftermath of everything recently is still lingering and while I may simmer for a while, it it is taking the smallest things to bring that back to the boil.

Everything is uncertain at the moment from where I am going to where I am going to live, the fact rent can’t be paid, I may not be able to continue on to level 3 of counselling course that I have worked so hard to complete level 2 due to funds, what is going to happen to us a family……It’s fairly overwhelming right now but one thing I have learned recently is to choose who I work with closely in relation to mental health projects and also that melting in to a million pieces is okay, it’s necessary sometimes. We are human, we all have limits – you have limits. Don’t ever think that breaking and crying and despairing is weak or isn’t okay somehow, because it IS okay, because you, me, all of us, we are in the words of Rag ‘n’ Bone Man “Only Human After all”

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New Vlog – It’s Been A While!

Writing a book is an amazing, scary thing!

In Bloom Not Broken – My Journey through mental illness is now available on Amazon!

I wanted to do a video updating what has been going on for me lately and to talk a bit about writing a book and how it’s difficult to please everone. It’s an impossible task and when writing yoir story it is just that – your story, your perspective and the only way to go about that is to own it and roll with it!

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My Story – In Bloom Not Broken Now Available On Amazon!

Firstly apologies for my quietness, I have had a HORRIBLE flu plus a kidney infection on top making one poorly Katie for a couple of weeks that has left me with Post Viral Fatigue Syndrome and wonderful continuous IBS issues which has just totally wiped me out and left me struggling to do much of anything at all which in the land of me who likes to be constantly active and creative has managed to sink some feelings of depression and anxiety in to the mix!

However on a much more positive note I am super excited (and nervous) to day that my book In Bloom Not Broken is now available on Amazon in ebook format and the paperback will also be available soon!

Amazon UK HERE

Amazon US HERE

This is so exciting as this is something I have wanted to do for so long but I had to wait until I was in the right place to be able to go through my life, feelings and thoughts with great honesty to wriye the book I wanted it to be and that included going through 10 diaries filled with raw emotion and feelings to add to the book.

I wanted it to be raw, honest, no heirs and graces to really let people inside the mind of someone struggling with mental illness and for those struggling themselves to be able to relate in a real way that would show they are not alone with their feelings and thoughts including those that may feel embarrassing or shameful. I wanted it to be something that would offer hope to others that things can get better even when that seems totally impossible and you no longer want to live if you just hold on.

It’s a scary thing to bare your soul, share diary entries and aspects of your life that are so personal that for a long time I was ashamed of. I am not ashamed anymore though and I hope this book will allow others to feel the same and get something from it.

It would mean the absolute world me if you could support my journey and have a read! If you do buy it and like it please do leave a review as they really help. I would love to hear what you think once you have read it so feel frew to contact me!

I never thought i’d actually write a book and would like to say a HUGE thank yoi to Eliezer Tristan Publishing who believed in my story.

I also want to say that this shows you can do anything you put your mind to. You really can if you just go for it. Don’t let anyone tell you you can’t. If I can do it so can you! Never give up on yourself or your dreams ♡

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In Bloom Not Broken Publishing Contract!

As some of you may be aware I have written a book “In Bloom Not Broken” based on my own mental health journey.

I wanted to write a raw, honest account on the reality of living with more than one mental illness whilst offering hope that it is possible to come through the other side.

Writing the book was both difficult and therapeutic going through all my old diaries as I wanted to add unedited diary entries and poems written at the time of hospital admissions, depression, feeling suicidal, anorexia, self harm, bipolar and psychosis.

My book aims to take the reader through all of these things in an honest, non flouncy way.

I wanted to create something real knowing that in the time of suffering This is what I myself wanted. Something real to connect to to.

So the fabulous news is that I have signed a publishing contract with the fabulous Eliezer Tristan Publishing 😁

I can’t tell you how happy I am knowing that my story will be an actual book that actual people can actually read!!!!

It meant more to me that that they have an awesome non profit Stigma Fighters as this book to me was to raise awareness and fight stigma by giving an honest account so I am delighted to sign with them for the publishing of my book and I hope this will further allow me to.use my experiences and my voice to raise awareness on mental illness and treatment.

I recently took part in an awesome project called The Open Shutters Project which was about the positives that come from having a mental illness.

We had to take along an object that meant something to us In terms of our mental health this was my portrait which has been in an exhibition in Manchester (Copyright Lisa Marie Gee)

My object was my manuscript as it was a marker to me how far I had come to be able to write 84,000 words about my own journey, go through multiple diaries and be able to do that without melting in an aim to help others and show they are not alone and so the publishing contract has meant the world to me!

I will post and update when its available to buy and if it helps one person then it will have been worth it. ♡

There is a lot to be said for books and relating to someone else’s story and that is my aim so please do keep an eye out for when it’s available to buy and let me know what you think!

Never give up on your dreams guys – You never know what tomorrow will bring. We never know what is just around that little corner ♡