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Lord Mayor Award!

I am still in shock that I received this letter telling me that I am getting a Lord Mayor Award!

This last month or so has been a rollercoaster of some amazing things and some terribly stressful things.

In about a month I have almost completed a course I never thought I would have the ability to do, I have changed my surname by deedpoll for personal and emotional reasons, walked away from my remaining parent who I desperately wanted a relationship with but realised this was never going to happen, struggled to buy food due to job loss, had to talk to the council about social housing and possiblity of homeless registers, then had some amazing person pay my level 3 counselling course fees anonomously which blew me away then this dropped through the door!!

Talk about roller coaster!!!

Some terrible stress mixed with the most amazing things has left my emotions feeling a little all over! However I am so immenseley grateful for the good lately and these incredible moments that have picked me back up. I don’t know who paid my course fees but I don’t have enough words to thank them.

I can’t believe that the Lord Mayor believes that I deserve this amazing recognition but I am blown away and so so thankful and I hope I am able to use this to move forward and do even more in relation to my mental health projects because that’s what I do it for, to reach people and show it is possible for things to get better and to not give in to those thoughts of suicide, that one more step is a step in the right direction, even if it feels wrong because you are still here to fight!

I wrote my BOOK and shared my story to reach as many hands of people who feel they have reached their end of hope as possible to show that if I can do it, so can anyone out there.

I do the projects that I do to create conversation around mental health and also to show people that small things that we can all easily do – they do make a difference to people. To quote the Dalai Lama:

“If you think you are too small to make a difference – try sleeping with a mosquito”

We are all capable of change, we are all capable of creating change.

I am incredibly humbled and grateful for this award (even if recieving praise I actually find quite difficult) The letter absolutely lifted me when I was starting to feel quite down and doubt myself and I am incredibly thankful for that and eveyone who supports me here and online daily. It really does mean the world to me.

This just shows though it is possible to go from being gripped by mental illness, multiple hospital admissions and wanting to die and planning just that to holding on by a thread and going on to do things (even though I still struggle and cannot say it’s perfect by any means) that I never thought I should, could or would and have found a true passion and positive in the hell that once was.

So keep going my friend, don’t give up on you. Not ever.

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Never Give Up On You. Ever.

Never give up on you. Never give up on your hopes and dreams. It is possible to get through the seemingly impossible.

I wanted to do this vlog to talk about feeling like we can never achieve, never be who we want and never achieve our goals and dreams.

Anyone that have read my BOOK will know the blocks that have stopped me moving forward in relation to mental illness and I just wanted to tell you all why even when you feel like it’s impossible, like you will never be able to work towards your goals, like you will never get past just not wanting to be around anymore…..Why things can and do change and to say just never give up on you. Even when it’s all you want to do. I have been there. I may even go back to being there at some point because mental illness follows us around but I do know now that if I have got through it before I can again…and again….and again. It’s totally possible to find a space in your brain that will eventually tell you the same even if you don’t feel that way now.

Just don’t give up on you. Keep those goals and dreams close to your heart and don’t let them go, for they will keep you going.

 

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Can You Help Me with My Dream?

Anyone that has seen my last blog post will know that life is currently not going in my favour to say the least.

I am determined to not let it all get the better of me, but I have to be honest and say that it is testing my metal, as they say at the moment!

As some of you may know I started my counselling training and am about to complete my level 2 which I have absolutely loved and it has not only taught and trained me in a field but also opened my mind personally and it has contributed to some very big changes within my personal life too.

Unfortunately with the shit hitting the fan in my personal circumstances I now cannot afford to move on to the level 3 as planned in June and am trying to hang on to hope and the possibility of losing the further training too.

As a last option I have created a Go Fund Me page to see whether I may be able to raise the funds to carry on my training.

Below is the Go Fund Me campaign details and link. I cannot tell you how much I would appreciate any contribution, no matter how small that would enable me to continue on my quest for counsellor qualification.

Massive thanks in advance beautiful people.

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My name is Katie and I am extremely passionate about mental health.
I have battled mental issues for most of my life including depression, anxiety, OCD and bipolar disorder with multiple subsequent hospital admissions.
Due to this I never pursued education and missed out on a lot of general life feeling lost, incapable and unsure where I was going.

Over the most recent years and with finally getting the right help and treatment I have been able to move on with my life and make some positive changes.

I decided that I wanted to use my experiences for something good – take all that negative and instead of feeling bitter about it use it for something positive.

I started sending “Happy Post” to those struggling with their mental health free to just help people know that they are not alone and to make someone smile!
From there I built a website www.mentalhealthjourney.co.uk where I blog and vlog to raise awareness on mental illness by sharing my own story and talking about related issues.

From doing that I started to do my own projects out in the community to raise awareness and create conversation around mental health and some of these got picked up by the media and social sharing sites and so I have gone on to share my story through various media such as the Victoria Derbyshire Show, radio, RT News and various other places as well as being part of the Lloyds bank #GetTheInsideOutCampaign.

I also volunteer for SHOUT which is a text service for people that feel they are in mental health crisis and need someone to talk to.

I have also recently published a book about my own journey through mental illness to give others something raw and relatable with no heirs and graces to show no one needs to be ashamed of their feelings and also hopefully raise awareness of how treatment needs to change within the system.

Counselling is something I have wanted to train in for many many years but I needed to make sure I was in the right place emotionally to do it and also build up enough confidence to actually take the plunge!

I finally got the that place and I am a few weeks from finishing my level 2 course.

The next step is my level 3 which I am due to start in June and was hoping to move on with  my same classmates as it takes me a while to settle in to places and I finally felt like I was getting there. I have loved every second of my level 2 and was excited to carry on towards becoming qualified but unfortunately my partner got made redundant.

Without making this in to an Xfactor sob story which I do not want as it stands we may be on the verge of losing out home and having to go down the social housing route, living is a struggle to say the least and we are just about surviving on the money I get.
Because my partner was self employed for a while after being made redundant to try and help himself rather than taking from the benefit system, ironically he is not not elegible for any benefits at all and so we are just about surviving and  every way we are looking at the moment we are being hit my a brick wall.

While I am determined not to let this beat us and we will fight until the death – with so much going on I really don’t want to lose my course and my training as well as it has kept me going and given me a focus that I do not want to lose with the long term aspirations that go alongside it.

I have tried advanced learner loans, grants and the like but just met by more brick walls. The only other option to train is the local adult education centre but unfortunately I applied to them before where I am currently training. The interview was great. All was well and then I received a phone call saying that I wasn’t being offered a place due to my “vulnerabilities” (The only thing I had told them was that I had bipolar disorder!) So that is not a viable route for me.

I have exhausted all other options and so that Is why I am resorting to this page and seeing wether i may be able to raise enough to help me start the level 3 training in June.  I am really trying not to leave what would be another 12 months before I can re look at it with a new group of people when with the type of course it is would set me back in the progress I have made and I would love to be able to continue, in flow, after finishing my level 2 very soon.

I have set the financial goal as what would cover the course fees and left out the registration fees as I should just about be able to cover this myself.

My passion is to help others in relation to mental health and to use my own experiences for something positive and I can’t tell you how much it would mean If I was able to raise this money to continue my training and to eventually, hopefully be able to give back to others.

I am so grateful for any help to help me along my journey and give a huge thank you to anyone that can donate no matter how small.

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