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You Are You

Just a little reminder to all you out there reading this right now that you are amazing.

There is one of you, mental health, be proud
there is one of you, be proud

You are YOU! DO you know how amazing that is?

There Is but one of you. One in this whole universe. Of all the humans out there right now there is just ONE of YOU!

That’s amazing. Add to that all the things that you personally do, That you personally have achieved, whatever they may be….That’s incredible.

Don’t underestimate YOU.

Don’t underestimate the power of you and all the things you have achieved and are yet still to achieve.

Don’t downplay those achievements. They are different for each of us and each one is amazing. You are here. Right now you are here. Being. Achieving. Growing. Learning. That’s something to be proud of wherever in life that may be. At whatever stage. It doesn’t matter.

You are you. That’s all that matters.

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Just a note to you this Sunday evening

There will be someone somewhere this Sunday evening struggling with their mental health.

Depression, anxiety, suicidal feelings – whatever it may be there will be so many people right now struggling.

I wanted to out out a short post. Just a little note from me to you. YOU sitting there right now struggling, feeling hopeless, worthless, like there is nothing left to do, no where left to go.

This is for you.

To tell you that I know it hurts feeling this way. I know it might feel like you’ve tried everything. Nothing is making this any better. That it can’t get any better. I know how much this hurts and the depths of these feelings because I have been there too, many times.

I also sit here now writing this to you knowing that if you give yourself time you will sit there as I sit here now feeling how glad I am that I am no longer in that place. Granted I know that it might sneak up on me again at any time, I not totally free from it’s grasp. The difference is now I have been through that and come through it time and time again I know that I am stronger and better equipped to deal with it next time, to almost watch it from a distance and let it run it’s course.

Nothing lasts forever, everything waxes and wanes and moves in and out like the tide.

This will too, even if it feels it wont.

Be kind to yourself in this time. Do what you need to do to get through. Be gentle with your mind as you would a broken leg. Don’t push it, let it heal and rest.

You will be Okay. These aren’t empty words. Believe me I know. I also know recovery is possible. That means different things to different people but to whatever extent that means for us – you – me, it’s possible.

Hand in there.

It’s going to be alright

x

suicide letter , mental health awareness
Mental health awareness. From me to you
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Who would have thunk it?!

So today I Did a shoot for Lloyds Bank #GetTheInsideOut campaign.

Who would have thought just as little as three years ago that I would be doing the things that I am for mental health awareness?!

Today I’m stood there being filmed and realised how far I had come and how none of us know what will happen.

Here’s why…..♡

#GetTheInsideOut

Talk to someone – Don’t be ashamed of your story. One day it will inspire others ♡

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Hearts of Hope – From My Heart To Yours

Hearts of hope in Shirley Park – World Mental Health Day 2018

I am so pleased at the response to this project, the converstations around mental health that have taken place surrounding it have been so positive.

Many of the hearts have been taken and hopefully hone to hands that need little hope ♡♡

I will be replenishing them later with another 40 ♡

I decided to make a little video about why I did this project.

You never know who you are speaking to and what they are going through. Every one is potentially fighting a battle you know nothing about.

I wanted to create conversation around mental health particularly in people that need to talk, that need to take that first step in speaking out about how they are feeling and I am very proud that this project seems to have created some of those converstations. ♡♡♡♡

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As They Say – Never Judge A Book By It’s Cover.

Judgements, assumptions. We all make them.

It’s part of being human but maybe we need to stop and think before we make an assumption of someone before knowing them or the full facts.

I know I have had assumptions made about me. I have been told I look “Bitchy”, “Unapproachable”

I was even told recently that i had not been accepted on to a counselling course due to my “vulnerabilities” All they knew about me that could possible have registered as “vulnerable” in their minds was the fact that I have bipolar disorder. Regardless of telling them all the awareness work I do etc etc I was deemed “vulnerable” – That is an assumption based on not a lot of information (Irony was part of the interview was talking about how counsellors shouldn’t make assumptions)

We all do it, it’s part of being human but I think It’s important to try to not make snap judgements about people and situations until we have learned the full facts.

As they say – You can’t judge a book by its cover!

This vlog is me talking about this and why you really can’t judge someone before knowing them first.

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This Little Thing Called Life

I’ve just happened across a poem (one of many!) That I wrote some years ago.

Reading it back now it almost has more meaning than when I first wrote it.

I thought I’d share it with you here as it may resonate with someone.

I’ve written sooooooo many poems over the years…I have never really shared them due to lack of self confidence or being told they are “depressing” in my teenage years but writing poetry was always a huge outlet for me.

So here’s “A Little Thing Called Life”

I don’t know where it came from

But it got me where it hurt

Like a disaster zone

Everything on red alert

It snuck in from depths of darkness

Didn’t see it coming around

And that Demon, he got to work

Did his damage while making no sound

Me too, bound by it’s silence

In the dead of night

Inner turmiol and violence

With every battle and every fight

Constantly feeling like you’re skimming

The edge of a knife

But just about missing-

In this little thing called life.

Had the foundations to start building

But in the depths of darkness went the cement

So I lost all my shielding

It never turned out how I meant

And in those depths of darkness

Even that demon wasn’t around

I guess even he couldn’t stand the starkenss

Just emptiness and no sound

It’s like shouting in the shadows

No one ever hears your call

And like grasping at thin air

doesn’t save you from the fall

And then sharper is the blade

On the point of that knife

And further you have strayed-

From this little thing called life

But then suddenly things start to change

And you make your OWN cement

As you realise that is possible

And it doesn’t MATTER where it went

So slowly you start to build

And one by one fill all the cracks

As as each one gets filled

You start to follow all the tracks

find there’s been a beginning-

A middle and an end

As to any story-there were just some errors you had to mend

As the building comes to completion

To examine-you first, must step away

And find despite your emotional depletion

It had to be that way

The greatest of buildings start with nothing at all

And that first simple brick-builds the first simple wall

And although that demon

Makes an appearance from time to time

You’ve built your shielding so know you’ll be fine

So no longer do you feel you’re skimming over the edge of that knife

For you build the skills to blunt it

This little thing called life….

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World Suicide Prevention Day – Understanding Suicide.

World Suicide Prevention Day – Monday 10th September.

Suicide holds a lot of stigma. People don’t like talking about it. I talk here about the feelings that go behind suicide and my own personal experiences in the aim of suicide awareness.

A simple message can save a life.

I am proof of this. Talk. Reach Out. End The Stigma.

Please take 10 minutes to watch this, to understand why suicide isn’t “a cowards way out”, it’s not “attention seeking” and why something as simple as a message really can save someone’s life.

Never forget the importance of allowing someone to talk to you. For letting them know you are there.

Remember to send a message, a text, pop round, ask how they are feeling. Don’t be scared to ask. Suicide lives in silence. Most will be glad you asked, glad you care enough to have taken that time to ask about them.

It really can be the smallest of things that make a big difference. sometimes all it takes is a message.