Are you ever too “broken” to come through the worst times and planning to end your life?
No. It may seem that way, even truly feel like this is it, this is the end but it doesn’t have to be. It’s possible for things to change even when you’re sure they won’t.
I’ve spoken about this before but I believe it’s an Important topic so I’m touching on it again with the the help of my manuscript.
Sometimes it’s only possible to see how far you have come when you look back. That’s a hard thing to do, but sometimes necessary.
Going through multiple diaries to write my story which I hope to have published was difficult but extremely therapeutic and made me realise what I have been through and just how far I’ve come. Not only that but that even when all hope seems to have gone and you’re utterly spent it’s possibly for things to change.
If you’re reading this and going through depression, anxiety, an eating disorder or a really impossible point of your life please know that things can and do change. You just have to hold on.
It’s part of being human but maybe we need to stop and think before we make an assumption of someone before knowing them or the full facts.
I know I have had assumptions made about me. I have been told I look “Bitchy”, “Unapproachable”
I was even told recently that i had not been accepted on to a counselling course due to my “vulnerabilities” All they knew about me that could possible have registered as “vulnerable” in their minds was the fact that I have bipolar disorder. Regardless of telling them all the awareness work I do etc etc I was deemed “vulnerable” – That is an assumption based on not a lot of information (Irony was part of the interview was talking about how counsellors shouldn’t make assumptions)
We all do it, it’s part of being human but I think It’s important to try to not make snap judgements about people and situations until we have learned the full facts.
As they say – You can’t judge a book by its cover!
This vlog is me talking about this and why you really can’t judge someone before knowing them first.
So I decided I wanted to organise another little project to tie in with this so I came up with ” Hearts Of Hope”
Seen as my last project with the notes on the bridge was “notes of hope” and my group which is still campaigning against the council who removed them has recently been renamed “Midlands Messages Of Hope” I wanted something that would tie in with this.
I came up with the idea of making similar notes to those on the bridge but with more of a general “mental health awareness” feel rather than the suicide prevention aim of the notes for the bridge and hanging them all around the rails that go around the entrance to my local park in the aim of mental health awareness, creating conversation around mental health and also notes that will tackle mental health stigma.
To my amazement after the recent awfulness and fight with Worcestershire county council removing my notes of hope from the bridge and what has turned in to a campaign in fight to rehang them I was completely shocked when within 2 hours I had a response from solihull council regarding the hearts if hope project, permission and support! It was pretty amazing considering recent events and so I will be aiming to do this project on 7th October to tie in to World Mental health day.
The aim is to hang them, people to read them, create conversation about mental health but to also attach them in a way so that they are removable.
People with a mental health issue and those who know someone with a mental health issue will be encouraged to take a heart and keep it or pass it on. Hopefully after a week all of the hearts with have gone to hands that need hope ♡♡
World Suicide Prevention Day – Monday 10th September.
Suicide holds a lot of stigma. People don’t like talking about it. I talk here about the feelings that go behind suicide and my own personal experiences in the aim of suicide awareness.
A simple message can save a life.
I am proof of this. Talk. Reach Out. End The Stigma.
Please take 10 minutes to watch this, to understand why suicide isn’t “a cowards way out”, it’s not “attention seeking” and why something as simple as a message really can save someone’s life.
Never forget the importance of allowing someone to talk to you. For letting them know you are there.
Remember to send a message, a text, pop round, ask how they are feeling. Don’t be scared to ask. Suicide lives in silence. Most will be glad you asked, glad you care enough to have taken that time to ask about them.
It really can be the smallest of things that make a big difference. sometimes all it takes is a message.
What does someone with a mental illness look like? Sound like? Act like?
Can someone be severely struggling with mental health but still able to portray themselves as a functioning person? Still look well groomed, hold a conversation to the point that you’d have no idea? Does someone have to have not have washed or got out of bed to be suicidal?
I believe that these are some of the most important questions that need to be asked and addressed in regards to mental health awareness.
These are factors that are so ingrained in to society about how someone with severe mental illness should present and portray themselves. Not just by the general public but also government bodies such as the DWP and also unfortunately by some mental health professionals themselves.
It makes us feel like we have lost ourselves and like we will never return, consumed by despair and hopelessness.
It’s easy to think when we are depressed that this is life. This is how it is now. We are lost in this hole and we can’t get out. There is no way out and we are now lost in this blackness.
This is where suicidal thoughts creep in. When we have lost hope. We believe there is no way out, no one can help. Nothing is ever going to make us feel good again and our old selves are like a dream that happened once upon a time.