In Bloom Not Broken – My Journey through mental illness is now available on Amazon!
I wanted to do a video updating what has been going on for me lately and to talk a bit about writing a book and how it’s difficult to please everone. It’s an impossible task and when writing yoir story it is just that – your story, your perspective and the only way to go about that is to own it and roll with it!
Firstly apologies for my quietness, I have had a HORRIBLE flu plus a kidney infection on top making one poorly Katie for a couple of weeks that has left me with Post Viral Fatigue Syndrome and wonderful continuous IBS issues which has just totally wiped me out and left me struggling to do much of anything at all which in the land of me who likes to be constantly active and creative has managed to sink some feelings of depression and anxiety in to the mix!
However on a much more positive note I am super excited (and nervous) to day that my book In Bloom Not Broken is now available on Amazon in ebook format and the paperback will also be available soon!
This is so exciting as this is something I have wanted to do for so long but I had to wait until I was in the right place to be able to go through my life, feelings and thoughts with great honesty to wriye the book I wanted it to be and that included going through 10 diaries filled with raw emotion and feelings to add to the book.
I wanted it to be raw, honest, no heirs and graces to really let people inside the mind of someone struggling with mental illness and for those struggling themselves to be able to relate in a real way that would show they are not alone with their feelings and thoughts including those that may feel embarrassing or shameful. I wanted it to be something that would offer hope to others that things can get better even when that seems totally impossible and you no longer want to live if you just hold on.
It’s a scary thing to bare your soul, share diary entries and aspects of your life that are so personal that for a long time I was ashamed of. I am not ashamed anymore though and I hope this book will allow others to feel the same and get something from it.
It would mean the absolute world me if you could support my journey and have a read! If you do buy it and like it please do leave a review as they really help. I would love to hear what you think once you have read it so feel frew to contact me!
I never thought i’d actually write a book and would like to say a HUGE thank yoi to Eliezer Tristan Publishing who believed in my story.
I also want to say that this shows you can do anything you put your mind to. You really can if you just go for it. Don’t let anyone tell you you can’t. If I can do it so can you! Never give up on yourself or your dreams ♡
One of my main mental health awareness goals for 2019 has been to hold an event.
I think so often it’s easy to focus on the negatives of mental illness that we forget about those out there that struggle, battle their own brains everyday but go on to help others.
I want to create an event that recognises those people, that recognises those one in a million professionals and that allows people to share their stories to offer hope to others.
I have been lucky enough to have been given a complimentary venue from the Bierkeller in Birmingham which is amazing seen as even Solihull and Birmingham Mental Health Foundation Trust woukd not offer their own venue/function room for this event, telling me that that had yearly financial targets to hit…. (Shocking I know, this is the mental health trust for the whole of solihull and Birmingham!)
There will be many more costs however and while my usual projects are funded from my own pocket with the occasional very kind donation, this project I will need some support with.
Unfortunately it doesn’t fit the criteria for any finding that I have looked at so I’m looking for your help!
This event will benefit not only those in Birmingham or those that attend but I hope as I have found through my other projects those further afield that read about it, hear about it to show that you CAN overcome, you CAN achieve and that there is hope.
I would really appreciate any help and 100% of all donations will go towards making this event happen!
I am super chuffed that in the last couple of days two of my pieces have been shared by the Huffington Post and The Mighty.
I think its so easy to assume as one human, just little old us we can’t possibly make a difference to this big wide world.
I am starting to challenge that within myself and think that maybe just maybe I can. We can. Not matter small it is, no matter what it is we choose to do to raise awareness, to be heard that it’s possible with a little hard work and determination and regarding mental health I have that in bucket loads oozing from my pores and I am DETERMINED to be a voice for those with mental illness.
My little tree of hope project was so simple. It cost me about £50 which I was more than happy to spend if it bought some hope to someone out there and that it did. It was also picked up on twitter with currently over 20k views and messages from others wanting to do the same, that means it not only impacted those walking past it in my local park but it also inspired people far and wide and it’s something that could be replicated so easily to offer hope and comfort and this gives ME hope.
The tree of hope was also picked up by the huffington post and you can see the article HERE
One of my favourite blog pieces was also picked up by The Mighty, it was one of my favourites as it was regarding the thing that I feel the most passionate about regarding mental health and that is treatment.
It’s a letter to mental health professionals from me and what i’d like them to know, on behalf of all mental health patients. You can see that article HERE
So please do carry on your own projects, your own awareness activities, they DO make a a difference, we CAN make a difference and as I always say. Don’t be ashamed of your story. it will inspire others. So keep writing, sharing and inspiring my beauties because our voices matter.
“You don’t look like you have depression / bipolar / anxiety……..(fill gap as appropriate)
Ahhh if I’d had a penny every time I have heard such a statement.
The big question here is what ARE we supposed to look like?
What would make some one say ” ah yes I thought as much” unless they saw you in melt down mode?
This always makes me curious … What is it that people expect to see?
The truth ANYONE can suffer with a mental illness. The same as anyone cam get a flu, break their leg…..Mental health is no different and peaks and troughs just the same….just more so for some than others.
I made this video to try and make that point.
If someone saw me me on the street would they think I have bipolar? Used to have anorexia? I highly doubt it.
Mental illness is Invisible to most. Hidden. Secret at times and this is what makes it lethal at times. Never judge or make assumptions before you know facts. You can’t judge a book by its cover. You can’t judge a person by their face.
So in one day it was my birthday, I started the counselling course I’ve wanted to do for 10 years and I got engaged! The following day I was featured in stylist magazine as part of Lloyds Bank #GetTheInsideOut campaign and It got me thinking about how and when me and my partner got together at the worst point of my life, how I never thought I’d do anything useful and ultimately how my living nightmare has now become my driving force and passion.
This just reinforced to me how you really don’t know what’s around the corner, where life will take you and get even if you think you’re way off the course of life it may just be leading you somewhere!
Mental health issues become such a big part of someones life, it’s hard to see past them sometimes.
Mental illness doesn’t always have to be a bad thing I’ve found though – it gives you a bigger heart, ears that listen better and eyes that view things from different angles.