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My Book Is Now In Paperback!! Mental Health Awareness Week

With it coming up to Mental Health Awareness Week, I am super pleased to say that my book In Bloom Not Broken is now available in paperback!

There is nothing like writing a book and finally getting a real copy in your hands! That is made even better with it coinciding with Mental Health Awareness Week!

This vlog is a little about my book, why I wrote it and what it’s all about!

You can get a copy (ebook or paper back) HERE UK Or HERE US

My journey through mental illness including self harm, depression, anorexia, bipolar disorder and the battle for treatment. I wanted it to be honest and really resonate with people and so I hope you will support and grab a copy! Please do remember to leave a little amazon review as It means the world to know that people have taken something from it and that it has helped in someway.

Katie Maylea – mental health book – In Bloom Not Broken

In Bloom Not Broken - Mental health book - Mental health awareness
Katie Maylea – Mental health book – In Bloom Not Broken – Mental health awareness

Never did I think I would have an actual book with my story open for everyone to read. Never in a million years. It’s possible guys! If I can do it so can you!

Much love and hope for this coming Mental Health Awareness Week

Katie

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Words Of Hope Video – In Bloom Not Broken

I have put this video together to help and inspire others that may be struggling with their mental health and to promote mental health awareness.

Everyone in this video has personal experience of mental health issues and have all come together to create a video to tell others that it’s okay not to be okay, it’s okay to have mental health issues and to talk about it and most of all, things can and will get better.

I have done projects within the local community and I wanted to do something that was accessible to more people and available online to offer hope and inspire others especially as it is nearly Christmas.

While it may be “The season to be jolly” , the fact is that a lot of people, myself included struggle around Christmas and New Year for a variety of reasons and so I wanted to put something out there from people of different backgrounds, from across the world sharing pieces of hope from their own experiences with mental illness.

There is a lot to be said from hearing words of encouragement from people that have been there and so I hope people get some comfort from this video and will share it to offer hope to others who may be struggling right now.

 

 

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Words Can Make Or Break.

Choice of words in mental health treatment have the power to make or break

These are just the tip of my mental health journey iceberg – specifically within my treatment for anorexia.

 

So I am currently in the process of having my book edited that I am hoping to have published – That’s the dream. Even if I don’t get it traditionally published I will be self publishing as my aim is to put my full mental health story out there to raise awareness in a number of areas, to give a frank account with no heirs and graces on living with mental illness but also to highlight and expose some of the treatment that I have received  over the years as I believe that I am not the only one to ever have had things said to them by professionals that quite frankly should never have been been said.

I believe it’s important to highlight this area for things to change and for better treatment to be given and for professionals to think about the words that leave their mouths. They are in a position of power where their words can make or break someone and too often it was the latter that happened to me. Maybe this is why It took me 15 years to access the right treatment and this is also the reason I dropped out of NHS services completely for four years as shockingly I found being under my local mental health team more difficult that dealing with it alone. A psychiatrist telling me after me giving him a private assessment report with a diagnosis of bipolar that my problem was that my life was “boring, empty and pointless” was the straw that broke the camels back for me and I then went on as diagnosed bipolar for four years with no help and no treatment,

The best treatment I ever received within the NHS was within the eating disorders unit but this was namely due to one psychiatrist who was what every psychiatrist should aim to be. However even within this service there comments that just shouldn’t have been made both by a psychiatrist ( One I saw before the amazing one mentioned above) and also a dietician within the inpatient unit itself.

I had more of these sorts of comments to come over the years which are all in my book that I am hoping to publish, this was just the start – but I wanted to put this out there, that these are comments that sometimes go on within treatment.

Anorexia is an illness filled with guilt……Unbearable guilt and so much confusion. At the time these comments I just believed, they fed in to what I was already feeling but looking back now I almost want to jump through my manuscript and grab hold of the person speaking these words to my former self.

These are the actual excerpts from my diaries at the time of treatment for anorexia.

This was while I was in day care for anorexia – ie 8am-4pm treatment which generally happens before inpatient treatment, at this point I was very poorly, very low in weight and surviving on next to nothing (very shortly after this and more drastic weight loss I was admitted as an inpatient at 6 stone)

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This was a conversation with the dietician within the day care programme. I was already wracked with guilt about “Rob” and generally felt guilty for even being alive at this point:

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Excerpt from my manuscript – Anorexia needs to be dealt with with so much sensitivity – words can literally make or break.

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Anorexia is far too much based on weight and numbers in regards to treatment which actually does nothing more that feed an already anorexic mind focussed on those same numbers.

A professional telling someone with anorexia that they do not currently meet “anorexic requirements” is a red flag to a bull.

I know from experience that it’s entirely possible for someone to experience the same distress, the same anorexic thoughts at a ” healthy” weight as at an “anorexic” weight and this needs to change.

The distress is still the same, except at a healthy weight it’s actually harder as you don’t feel validated and most of the time within treatment AREN’T validated unless the numbers are there.

Professionals need to be so aware of what they are saying. As I say, this was the very tip of my iceberg…Similar comments and worse continued throughout my fifteen year quest for the right treatment and it’s only now that I look back I realise how wrong it was of them. How the issue wasn’t me, I was ill.

It’s now I feel able to come out with my story, with all the things that were said that never should have been.

I hope to publish a story that people can relate to, one that is honest.

Always fight for the right treatment, don’t let professionals speak to you in a certain manner because they have “authority” always fight for yourself, stick up for yourself. It’s hard and it can be scary but always fight for what you believe to be right.

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World Suicide Prevention Day – Understanding Suicide.

World Suicide Prevention Day – Monday 10th September.

Suicide holds a lot of stigma. People don’t like talking about it. I talk here about the feelings that go behind suicide and my own personal experiences in the aim of suicide awareness.

A simple message can save a life.

I am proof of this. Talk. Reach Out. End The Stigma.

Please take 10 minutes to watch this, to understand why suicide isn’t “a cowards way out”, it’s not “attention seeking” and why something as simple as a message really can save someone’s life.

Never forget the importance of allowing someone to talk to you. For letting them know you are there.

Remember to send a message, a text, pop round, ask how they are feeling. Don’t be scared to ask. Suicide lives in silence. Most will be glad you asked, glad you care enough to have taken that time to ask about them.

It really can be the smallest of things that make a big difference. sometimes all it takes is a message.

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Self harm – complex and difficult to understand – this is my own experience.

Self Harm – It can be difficult to understand both as someone going through it and someone trying to help.

My experiences with self harm and advice from my personal perspective.

I recently gave an interview on the BBC Victoria Derbyshire show about the recent self harm statistics in teenage girls and wanted to expand a little on my own experiences.

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Dear mental health professionals, yours sincerely – mental health patients everywhere.

If I could only raise awareness and campaign on one area of mental health it would be NHS services.

So many are being failed and spoken to in way which should never happen and I feel it’s an area that goes largely unoticed.

This is my letter to mental health professionals, what we want you to know. From mental health patients everywhere.

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Self Harm And Stigma.

Katie houghton - self harm awareness - mental health
Self harm – BBC News – Katie Houghton

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-45345696

Self harm is misunderstood and often thought of as attention seeking behaviour. This couldn’t be further from the truth. People that self harm will mostly go to great lengths to hide it.

In a way, I was lucky that I learned to control it but this took many many many years and a distinct lack of help – including being told by a psychiatrist on an inpatient ward that it was “child’s play”, “didn’t I like that sort of attention?” ” you haven’t actually tried to kill yourself have you?” and I pretty much dealt with it alone.

It holds a lot of stigmas and people often don’t know how to react to it but the fact is the statistics are on the rise and young people are getting younger…

Once started it’s something that difficult to stop and very easily becomes an ingrained and “go to” coping mechanism.

My advice to anyone struggling is to speak to someone – whoever that may be – someone you trust, a helpline- anyone that will allow you to speak without judgment.
This is a very hard thing to do but it’s a brave and vital step to getting the help you need and the longer it lives in secrecy the harder things can become. It can be stopped. I didn’t think it could after years of not getting any real support for it, but you can come through it ♡

To any parents or carers I would say that just listening is so important, don’t judge, don’t assume they are trying to end their lives – while the self harming may be a way of expressing that this is how they feel the action of self harm itself doesn’t necessarily mean suicidal intent – it does mean there are overwhelming emotions and trying to get to the bottom of those is important and so talking, listening , and kindness are so important. Trying to get the person just to stop and focussing all the energy around that has the danger of pushing them away and making them less open and so supporting them emotionally and getting relevant help are vital.

Don’t judge people who self harm. Don’t assume their reasons for doing it. Listen. Be kind. It’s a very difficult time and words are important.

I hope that schools take note of the new statistics and mental health becomes spoken about it schools as part of a curriculum. Mental health issues are ever growing and children are getting younger.
I hope that children will be given the relevant knowledge and understanding to understand what is going on with themselves and also their peers!

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