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Words Of Hope Video – In Bloom Not Broken

I have put this video together to help and inspire others that may be struggling with their mental health and to promote mental health awareness.

Everyone in this video has personal experience of mental health issues and have all come together to create a video to tell others that it’s okay not to be okay, it’s okay to have mental health issues and to talk about it and most of all, things can and will get better.

I have done projects within the local community and I wanted to do something that was accessible to more people and available online to offer hope and inspire others especially as it is nearly Christmas.

While it may be “The season to be jolly” , the fact is that a lot of people, myself included struggle around Christmas and New Year for a variety of reasons and so I wanted to put something out there from people of different backgrounds, from across the world sharing pieces of hope from their own experiences with mental illness.

There is a lot to be said from hearing words of encouragement from people that have been there and so I hope people get some comfort from this video and will share it to offer hope to others who may be struggling right now.

 

 

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Just a note to you this Sunday evening

There will be someone somewhere this Sunday evening struggling with their mental health.

Depression, anxiety, suicidal feelings – whatever it may be there will be so many people right now struggling.

I wanted to out out a short post. Just a little note from me to you. YOU sitting there right now struggling, feeling hopeless, worthless, like there is nothing left to do, no where left to go.

This is for you.

To tell you that I know it hurts feeling this way. I know it might feel like you’ve tried everything. Nothing is making this any better. That it can’t get any better. I know how much this hurts and the depths of these feelings because I have been there too, many times.

I also sit here now writing this to you knowing that if you give yourself time you will sit there as I sit here now feeling how glad I am that I am no longer in that place. Granted I know that it might sneak up on me again at any time, I not totally free from it’s grasp. The difference is now I have been through that and come through it time and time again I know that I am stronger and better equipped to deal with it next time, to almost watch it from a distance and let it run it’s course.

Nothing lasts forever, everything waxes and wanes and moves in and out like the tide.

This will too, even if it feels it wont.

Be kind to yourself in this time. Do what you need to do to get through. Be gentle with your mind as you would a broken leg. Don’t push it, let it heal and rest.

You will be Okay. These aren’t empty words. Believe me I know. I also know recovery is possible. That means different things to different people but to whatever extent that means for us – you – me, it’s possible.

Hand in there.

It’s going to be alright

x

suicide letter , mental health awareness
Mental health awareness. From me to you
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Notes Of Hope In Parliament

I was over the moon today to hear that the wonderful MP of Redditch took the issue of my notes of hope being torn down by the council to debate as she is backing this project ♡

This project was for both suicide awareness and suicide prevention and very personal and so I was devastated how it was handled.

This has shown me once again however to believe in yourself, your goals and your vision.

Even if people disagree, go against you and don’t share your goal. Those people are inevitable ….. It’s about finding those that do and will walk by your side.

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In Bloom Not Broken Publishing Contract!

As some of you may be aware I have written a book “In Bloom Not Broken” based on my own mental health journey.

I wanted to write a raw, honest account on the reality of living with more than one mental illness whilst offering hope that it is possible to come through the other side.

Writing the book was both difficult and therapeutic going through all my old diaries as I wanted to add unedited diary entries and poems written at the time of hospital admissions, depression, feeling suicidal, anorexia, self harm, bipolar and psychosis.

My book aims to take the reader through all of these things in an honest, non flouncy way.

I wanted to create something real knowing that in the time of suffering This is what I myself wanted. Something real to connect to to.

So the fabulous news is that I have signed a publishing contract with the fabulous Eliezer Tristan Publishing 😁

I can’t tell you how happy I am knowing that my story will be an actual book that actual people can actually read!!!!

It meant more to me that that they have an awesome non profit Stigma Fighters as this book to me was to raise awareness and fight stigma by giving an honest account so I am delighted to sign with them for the publishing of my book and I hope this will further allow me to.use my experiences and my voice to raise awareness on mental illness and treatment.

I recently took part in an awesome project called The Open Shutters Project which was about the positives that come from having a mental illness.

We had to take along an object that meant something to us In terms of our mental health this was my portrait which has been in an exhibition in Manchester (Copyright Lisa Marie Gee)

My object was my manuscript as it was a marker to me how far I had come to be able to write 84,000 words about my own journey, go through multiple diaries and be able to do that without melting in an aim to help others and show they are not alone and so the publishing contract has meant the world to me!

I will post and update when its available to buy and if it helps one person then it will have been worth it. ♡

There is a lot to be said for books and relating to someone else’s story and that is my aim so please do keep an eye out for when it’s available to buy and let me know what you think!

Never give up on your dreams guys – You never know what tomorrow will bring. We never know what is just around that little corner ♡

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To You On World Mental Health Day 2018

It’s World Mental Health Day 2018 and it’s great when these dates come around as there is so much more conversation around mental health which can only be a good thing.

It’s also important to remember however that mental health is something we need to be aware of everyday. For ourselves and for those around us. Mental health awareness needs to be there 24/7 the same as our physical health.

For people affected by mental health which is 1 in 4 it’s not exclusive to mental health day, it’s a day to day battle of fighting for ourselves and far too often, our lives.

With the success of my recent campaign “hearts of hope” with personal notes being an effective way of reaching people struggling, for those of you that don’t live local and so haven’t been able to go and get one of my notes and whom haven’t received Happy post from me I wanted to write you a letter here, to anyone that may be struggling and finding things difficult – This is for you.

Dear You,

To the person that feels lonely, scared, ashamed, hopeless and who is struggling today, I want to tell you that you are going to be okay. It may not feel that way now, but it will.

You see I have felt hopeless, lonely and had given up on my life once too. I planned to end my life. I was in so much pain with so much confusion that I didn’t know which way was up. I barely functioned and I battled my way through 15 years of trying to get the right treatment. That may be the last thing you want to hear. 15 years is an awfully long time but there were good times within that too and I battled my way through. It’s not like that for everyone, everyones journey and path is different. Even with the same diagnosis no two people are the same. For you, your journey will be different too, it wont go the way mine did – because you are you and that alone is something to celebrate. There is not another you on this planet – just you – one of a kind and you are all kinds of amazing.

You may be new to struggling with mental health and wondering what you’re supposed to do and may not have told anyone yet how you are feeling. Or like me you may be an old hat and more aware of what is going on and how to manage that better. Wherever you are on that journey however it still hurts the same when it hurts and the black is as black when going through a depression, the delusions are still as scary each time they roll around – Whatever it is that you are struggling with when it’s bad it’s bad and we all cope in our own ways as will you.

What I want you to know today is that I know what it’s like to feel hopeless, I know what it is to break in to a million tiny pieces and feel like it’s impossible to glue all those pieces back together to resemble something called life. I also know that is possible.

Now I’m not perfect. Far from it. I have moods that flail around at times, I have anxiety and that gets the better of me, I still check pointless objects at night as part of an OCD ritual to make sure they are still there. I still take lithium and quetiapine to keep my brain on track and throw in a clonazepam a day to keep the anxiety at bay. There is no such thing as a perfect recovery in mental health. It’s a process of management. Of learning about yourself, what makes you tick, what makes you break, your limits and learning to manage your life and your illness but do you know what? That’s okay!!!! if you’re not there yet then you will be.

You may be thinking “That’s great for her and I’m never going to feel that way” That’s okay too because that’s exactly what I thought when I read things like this, I thought it happened to “other people” and how great that was for them but that I was too broken.

This is why I created the hashtag #InBloomNotBroken which will also hopefully be the title of my book when it’s published because no one is too broken, we are simply in bloom. That means you too.

I nearly ended my life and quirk of fate stopped that from happening and now my god am I glad I didn’t!! I struggle but i’m better than I was, I do things that matter to me, I have a beautiful daughter to see grow up. I may not have the uni degree or the career…I’ve spent so much time in hospital and in the depths of mental illness that wasn’t possible but just because that’s what society tells us is success, actually it’s not. Success derives from happiness in whatever form that will take so screw what anyone thinks – If I have a period where I’m happy and healthy then I deem myself very bloody successful.

You have a purpose. If you feel you don’t then you just haven’t found it yet. You will find it. If you are struggling remember – This isn’t the forever you, it’s just the for now you and you will find the true you again, just give yourself time. Everything needs time, a cold, a flu, a broken leg – Mental Illness is no different.

You will be okay. I promise. Just be gentle with yourself, give yourself time, don’t push yourself to do what you think you should just for that reason alone, listen to your gut, take time for you, listen to yourself and fight for the right help and treatment – you deserve that, don’t put up with being lost in the system.

If you are struggling but haven’t told anyone yet please take the first step of doing this. It’s hard, scary but it’s vital. Holding it back doesn’t nothing but make it grow. Tell a friend, a family member or talk to someone in confidence like the samaritans who you can call free 24 hours a day on 116 123.

Don’t suffer in silence.

Don’t be ashamed to be you.

And don’t be ashamed of your story. One day it will inspire others.

Take care of you

Lots of love

Katie

xxxx

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Coming Through The Worst Times – Suicide Awareness

Are you ever too “broken” to come through the worst times and planning to end your life?

No. It may seem that way, even truly feel like this is it, this is the end but it doesn’t have to be. It’s possible for things to change even when you’re sure they won’t.

I’ve spoken about this before but I believe it’s an Important topic so I’m touching on it again with the the help of my manuscript.

Sometimes it’s only possible to see how far you have come when you look back. That’s a hard thing to do, but sometimes necessary.

Going through multiple diaries to write my story which I hope to have published was difficult but extremely therapeutic and made me realise what I have been through and just how far I’ve come. Not only that but that even when all hope seems to have gone and you’re utterly spent it’s possibly for things to change.

If you’re reading this and going through depression, anxiety, an eating disorder or a really impossible point of your life please know that things can and do change. You just have to hold on.

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Hearts Of Hope – World Mental Health Day

It’s World Mental Health Day 10th October

So I decided I wanted to organise another little project to tie in with this so I came up with ” Hearts Of Hope”

Seen as my last project with the notes on the bridge was “notes of hope” and my group which is still campaigning against the council who removed them has recently been renamed “Midlands Messages Of Hope” I wanted something that would tie in with this.

I came up with the idea of making similar notes to those on the bridge but with more of a general “mental health awareness” feel rather than the suicide prevention aim of the notes for the bridge and hanging them all around the rails that go around the entrance to my local park in the aim of mental health awareness, creating conversation around mental health and also notes that will tackle mental health stigma.

To my amazement after the recent awfulness and fight with Worcestershire county council removing my notes of hope from the bridge and what has turned in to a campaign in fight to rehang them I was completely shocked when within 2 hours I had a response from solihull council regarding the hearts if hope project, permission and support! It was pretty amazing considering recent events and so I will be aiming to do this project on 7th October to tie in to World Mental health day.

The aim is to hang them, people to read them, create conversation about mental health but to also attach them in a way so that they are removable.

People with a mental health issue and those who know someone with a mental health issue will be encouraged to take a heart and keep it or pass it on. Hopefully after a week all of the hearts with have gone to hands that need hope ♡♡

You can join the group to support me here : https://www.facebook.com/groups/278903099335095/


Here’s to filling hearts with hope ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡