I had the honour last night of being awarded a Lord Mayor Award at the council chambers in Birmingham!
Receiving a Lord Mayor Award – Katie Maylea
I am so grateful for this as it has given me more confidence and determination to carry on what I aim to in regards to mental health awareness.
It has also shown me that we can’t always believe our brains telling us we are no good! I had this inner dialogue going on even as I was waiting to collect this award that was telling me I wasn’t worthy of being there, that I looked out of place…..So I know it’s easier said than done but don’t believe everything you think!
Be yourself and believe that you can because you can! Even when you tells you that you can’t it doesn’t mean that it is impossible – I am still working on this too.♡♡♡♡
I finally got around to watching the amazing David Harewood Psychosis And Me documentary and I wanted to do a video as I realised I haven’t spoken about this quite so much.
There is a lot of stigma around psychosis and what experiencing psychosis actually means.
I have spoken about my experiences in my BOOK – In Bloom Not Broken and it is something that is definately tough to tale about but this documentary did a fantastic job so I wanted to touch on my own experiences in the above video and share with you a couple of my “scribblings” from the time.
It’s important that this topic is spoken about more so I am grateful to David Harewood and this documentary as I feel it is quite a hidden mental illness – one that carries a lot of shame and gets shyed away from.
It is a scary experience, it’s confusing and it is hard to come back from too – the procesing and feelings that come in the aftermath are in some ways just as difficult and I think there also needs to be more support post psychosis – not just treating the psychosis itself and this is important to highlight I think.
If you have experienced psychosis you are not alone and you are not alone in how it makes you feel and how it makes you question yourself. It’s okay to talk about this. Don’t be alone.
If you would like to read my story and journey through mental illness my book is available here.
My journey through mental illness including self harm, depression, anorexia, bipolar disorder and the battle for treatment. I wanted it to be honest and really resonate with people and so I hope you will support and grab a copy! Please do remember to leave a little amazon review as It means the world to know that people have taken something from it and that it has helped in someway.
Katie Maylea – mental health book – In Bloom Not Broken
Never did I think I would have an actual book with my story open for everyone to read. Never in a million years. It’s possible guys! If I can do it so can you!
Much love and hope for this coming Mental Health Awareness Week
It’s so easy to get caught up in anxiety and believing that we can’t do something, when actually we are capable.
This Vlog Is about why you CAN, and why you shouldn’t let anyone tell you that you can’t.
Sometimes we surprise ourselves! I have surprised myself recently and it’s always great when this happens as it challenges my often negative beliefs about myself, it gives me more power and determination to draw from.
As they say A journey starts with a single step……..
Never give up on you. Never give up on your hopes and dreams. It is possible to get through the seemingly impossible.
I wanted to do this vlog to talk about feeling like we can never achieve, never be who we want and never achieve our goals and dreams.
Anyone that have read my BOOK will know the blocks that have stopped me moving forward in relation to mental illness and I just wanted to tell you all why even when you feel like it’s impossible, like you will never be able to work towards your goals, like you will never get past just not wanting to be around anymore…..Why things can and do change and to say just never give up on you. Even when it’s all you want to do. I have been there. I may even go back to being there at some point because mental illness follows us around but I do know now that if I have got through it before I can again…and again….and again. It’s totally possible to find a space in your brain that will eventually tell you the same even if you don’t feel that way now.
Just don’t give up on you. Keep those goals and dreams close to your heart and don’t let them go, for they will keep you going.
We all, I think try and hold back emotions, our true feelings and selves sometimes but more often than not this will find a way of exploding.
Recently with the stress of having to cancel my event through what I felt what lack of support, understanding, ticket sales, my partner losing his job, health issues, and general life stress it all exploded in to a cluster fuck of shit. One big explosion of emotion that took my feet from underneath me.
I am still not 100% and the level of pure anxiety from the aftermath of everything recently is still lingering and while I may simmer for a while, it it is taking the smallest things to bring that back to the boil.
Everything is uncertain at the moment from where I am going to where I am going to live, the fact rent can’t be paid, I may not be able to continue on to level 3 of counselling course that I have worked so hard to complete level 2 due to funds, what is going to happen to us a family……It’s fairly overwhelming right now but one thing I have learned recently is to choose who I work with closely in relation to mental health projects and also that melting in to a million pieces is okay, it’s necessary sometimes. We are human, we all have limits – you have limits. Don’t ever think that breaking and crying and despairing is weak or isn’t okay somehow, because it IS okay, because you, me, all of us, we are in the words of Rag ‘n’ Bone Man “Only Human After all”
I’m through to the next stage of the UK Blog Awards 2019 which is very exciting!
The UK Blog Awards celebrates bloggers from a whole range of different categories and I am under the “Mental Health” and “Wellbeing” categories.
These awards mean the world to me due to their ethos and what understand for. Alot of their social posts are very much of my own beliefs and what I try to convey and so I’m chuffed to bits that I am in this next round.
40% of this next round is on public vote and so very much in your hand and I would be SO grateful if you could take seconds to vote for me HERE
To win this would be amazing, I often doubt myself and so this would not only be a major achievement for me but it would also have the potential to open up further possibilities and opportunities to use my voice and experience to help others which is what I ultimately want to do.
Some of you may or may not know that I start a counselling course next week (on my birthday!) Which I have wanted to do for at least 8 years!! My ultimate goal and dream is to one day have a little retreat where people can go when feeling suicidal with no where else to go for a respite.
All of the things I am doing here with this website, with the media things I’ve been involved with, these awards I feel it’s all to lead to something where I can use my voice on a larger scale and have a little house of hope! That’s the dream. That’s the goal and these awards are another little step in that direction for me so it really would mean the world to me if you could vote and share to as others to do the same. I really would appreciate it ♡